Friday, March 19, 2010

Ch Ch Changes....

I have decided that I am going to embark on a journey for the next 6 months, I graduate college in less than 8 weeks and I have been working non-stop for the past 6 months!  I have been thinking a lot about changes that I need to make in my life in order to make myself happy. It seems for the past year I have been go go go taking care of other people instead of myself, and in that I have lost who I really am.  This thought does not make me happy if anything it makes me furious and angry that somewhere in the twist and turns the good and bad, I have lost the most important thing and that is myself.  I know it sounds so not original but I have turned into someone I no longer enjoy being.  I have a great boyfriend and I love my job even though it is not permanent I still have to find a job after graduation that I enjoy and love, I do not want to settle like many of my friends and I know that with the economy the way it is it hard to find anything without exhausting every resource.   So here is the plan I am going to lay out a variety of things that I want to do and change in my life over the next 6 months nothing crazy but simple changes.

1. I need to start taking care of my body
2. I need to expand my mind,  being forced to read 300 page con law books has somewhat diminished my love of reading I need to get that back
3. I need to find my happy place again (I am not depressed but I have been sluggish and sad for a while, I love my life and what it has given me but something has been off for a while)
4. Time to myself has been sparingly sparse I have been on a whirl wind busy schedule barely able to clean my house let alone go grocery shopping.
5. Making myself happy first and foremost...I am a textbook people pleaser and I have let that control parts of my life including my close relationships with people I love.

There are more things to add to this list but for now this is enough I am getting myself ready for this journey of empowerment (if it can even be called that) but it must be something deep.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

It has been awhile

Wow! That is pretty much my last 6 weeks, after getting promoted at work and taking on a large amount of responsibility as the social marketing director I am tired and I am ready for a major vacation...I will be posting less but  I am still here!